Thursday, August 19, 2010

They Go Up

It's your ears darling
It's your ears
They're down
You see?
When you're really happy
They go up

It's the cutest thing
I loved it
I know
Remember?
They'd go up for me
They go up

But they don't for her
They don't do it
I saw them
Go up
I saw as I kissed you
They go up

I saw out of the corner
Of my eye
As you leaned in
And you
Smiled and whispered my name
They go up

But i saw the pictures
Of you and her
You smiled
And kissed
And whispered her name

But I saw the pictures of you and her

I saw out of the corner of my eye

But they don't for her. They don't do it.

It's the cutest thing. I loved it.

It's your ears, darling. It's your ears.

They go up.


*This is an old poem...from the fall of 2008. Do you think my style has changed at all?* 

Saturday, July 31, 2010

There's a little purple bruise on the upside of 
    my inner thigh

It's a near perfect circle, just a tiny bit off.
That makes me like it more though, the 
    flaw in the masterpiece

You painted it there last night, or the night 
    before (that)
My memory is a bit blurry from your breathless 
    kisses and my spinning soul

Our time there and Our bruise here
It seems so very little, to remember something so very great.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

To The Holiday

JusT
WannA
say
on
thiS
Day of both hate and peace|||   f
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LO
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Sunday, April 11, 2010

Again

I am 13 again
My cheeks are hot
And with great effort dry.
I am here again
No words to say
But I keep stammering on anyway.
I am ashamed again
Your half kind voice
Tells cruel truths to me
I am the fool again
My wits and whiles
Were not enough is seems
I am 13 again
My throat is tight
And breath comes slowly, painfully
I am undesired again
Your amber eyes
Do not linger on my face
I am mistaken again
I thought I could
Feel you beckoning me but
I am just the fool again.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Part 4 [Untitled]

Veneranda waved her hand dismissively in the direction of the slippers he sister held. "Oh, don't fret, my sparrow. That's all been taken care of hours before you woke. In fact, today I completed an arrangement that I believe will serve us very well for some time." She grinned, pouty pink lips stretched taught over two rows or perfect pearly teeth.

The older princess returned the grin, admiring her sister's vicious confidence. Faileuba tossed the ruined shoes towards the hearth and turned to face Veneranda. Crossing her arms, she smirked and said, "Alright, my darling sister, I want to hear how you've solved our most constant problem."

The short blonde girl did not reply at first. She enjoyed the rapt attention she was receiving at the moment. Pursing her lips and taking a few dancing steps sideways, the young princess asked sweetly, "Do you believe, my sugarplum, that I have some tale to tell you?" Her eyebrows arched in mock seriousness and a delicate white hand fluttered to her throat. "Me, my jewel?"

Still relishing the tango she had begun, Veneranda sashayed over to the window, She cast a wry smile over her shoulder and then proceeded to draw back the tapestry curtains and the late afternoon light filled the room. She knew her sister hated that, but she also knew her older sibling would withstand it in order to find out her information.

Princess Faileuba sighed but could not help admiring the skill of her sister's politics. At fifteen she considered herself adept at navigating the stormy seas of their father's court; however, her little sister, barely past eight, sailed through the halls of the castle with the whiles of an aged courtier and all the murderous ruthlessness of a pirate. Faileuba had not begun to notice until recently but her sister had actually been in possession of this constitution and temperament since birth.

Born fighting, Veneranda had entered the world with mistrust and disappointment surrounding her. The breach was such a struggle that their mother, the most beloved and first wife of the King, surrendered her life to free the new one. That weight, added to her being the twelfth princess of an heirless kingdom, forced the littlest princess to grow quickly.

Veneranda's maturity seemed to manifest itself immediately. Though the baby was an exemplary Frankish cherub with golden hair, ribbon lips, and long dark lashes framing the most beautiful sapphire eyes, people felt unnerved by her from the start. It was in those dazzling blue eyes that people saw her intensity. She watched everything fastidiously; and, as she looked at them and listened to the things said around her, people swore they detected understanding in her gaze. Those observant eyes seems to comprehend everything. This unsettling aspect about the tiny princess was eerily enforced by the way that Veneranda might wail when someone held her. 

If the person picking her up was the king, her nursemaid, or someone associated with either of them, then she exhibited nothing but smiles and cooing, but if they were someone who was unfavored, either in court or the servant's opinon, that precious cherub would scream like a dying seagull. She demonstrated such loyalty and such damaging repercussions were inflicted on those that displeased her, that before she was completing sentences, the entire castle feared her disapproval. 

Faileuba was not so locked into fear of the tiny golden princess as the rest of the household. Once she had shown interest in her only full sister, their alliance had quickly formed. Having a lifetime of loyalty from a child of eight may seem laughable to most but with Veneranda it meant a lot. The young politician considered her sister to be her closest confidant and because of the power and favors that position allotted Faileuba, she did not mind allowing her sister to flaunt her primacy. 

The youngest daughter to the King had come far in her political career in a very short time. Her opinion was sought by every member of the household. The menus were constructed to her liking, the musicians played her favorite songs, visitors knew a lavish gift to her was the main gateway to acceptance in court, and even the advisers and generals felt comforted when she approved their suggestions. 

This day, however, she was not lending counsel to the counselors. She was instead determinedly pulling back the drapes from all three of Faileuba's windows. When she had completed that and set about to open the windows themselves, her sister finally held up a hand.

"My dearest, I beg you!"

The youngest girl laughed. "Alright, my turtledove, I will tell you what I have done."

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Part 3 [Untitled]

When the soldier had walked a ways, bearing the satchel on his shoulder an the burden of the hot sun on his back, he stopped for a while to rest under a wide-spread oak tree. The shade and cool green grass soothed him quickly. Renaund sunk his fingers into the dark moist earth closer to the tree's roots. It was good, fine dirt. Untapped life that just lay beside the road waiting to give birth.

He felt an ache in his gut that surpassed his growling stomach. Deep within this seasoned warrior was the desire to create. He wanted to see the earth give into the sweet love song of spring and produce tiny blossoms and shafts of green in loose rich soil, with all the abandonment of Proserpina's seduction.

But he had far yet to go on his journey. His destination lay miles to the West of him and even now the thought of it made his limbs sore and his spirit flicker at the coming trials. He was on this long road with no friend to walk beside him, or servant to share the load. Renaund's awareness of his forlorn situation deepened as he pondered the deities that brought solace to so many.

His thoughts did not often stray down this path. It was one he had explored briefly as a younger man, but he had found the cost too great and the only treasure gained was more rules to abide by and more duties to be observed. Renaund considered himself a man recently freed from both and saw no point being owned by a new master so soon. Though, the journey ahead of him whispered eerie tales of wandering nights and lonely roads. He understood the temptation to believe in some higher being who would cover you with the light of protection, to have someone helping, a person to be there beside you as you stride into the unknown. Instead of making the trek alone.

Shoving aside the dark thoughts that pervaded his mind, Renaund stood up. He glanced above him at the gnarled curling branches of the oak. Stretching his arms high, the soldier grasped a low hanging limb. Lifting his feet he hung there for a few seconds, swinging like a school boy from the great tree.

Laughing quietly to himself, the tall muscular man dropped to his feet. His dark hair fell in his eyes and as he brushed it back, he spotted something moving towards him. Turning quickly he saw what appeared to be an old man leading a lame mare.

Renaund relaxed a bit and approached the fellow traveler.

"Good morrow, sir. I see your horse is lame."

The white haired man stopped and chuckled a bit as he patted the mare's neck.

"Yes. She tends to out do herself quickly these days, but we get on, don't we Mave?"

The brown horse shifted her stance and gave a soft nicker. Renaund looked her over, observing the mud-caked flank and lifted hoof. The condition of the mare's coat matched that of her owner's. They both looked like they had been traveling for some days now, if not weeks. There were a few bags slung over the horse's back but none of them seemed more than half full. He doubted very much that this old man had more than two coins to rub together.

The solitariness of this stranger's situation, touched Renaund. He felt compassion for his plight and wished he had the means to help the old man and his gentle mare continue their trip. Clearing his throat, Renaund offered to examine the injured mare and the aged traveler agreed with a wink of his twinkling blue eyes. So the soldier stepped forward and began to carefully examine the horse while its owner rested in the shade of the oak.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Part 2 [Untitled]

Her eyes opened just enough to glare angrily at the gap in the curtain, where morning sunshine was allowed to stream inside. Yanking the tapestry towards her, the young girl swore at a whistling mockingbird and flipped over. She pounded the pillow with her fist and settled in to wait for the darkness to soothe her. Without these curtains around my bed, I might never get any peace. 

The lulling numbness of sleep had overpowered the girl for hours before the next interruption came. The sound was muffled at first and then grew louder as the curtains swished back on their rod and swung against the bedposts. 

"Get up, my little dove. Rise and great the fading day!"

The high-pitched warble that roused the sleeping girl from her sleep was insistent in its cheerfulness. Try as she might to remain in that dreamland of glittering trees and silver water, there was that persistent chirp in her ear repeating her name over and over, "Faileuba, Faileuba, Faileuba, Faileuba, Faileuba..." until she had no option but to turn over, open her eyes, and surrender to the waking world. 

"Enough Veneranda. I am awake."

Her little sister smiled brightly and scratched her nose. "Splendid, my darling. Now you must think seriously about sitting up!" Veneranda's blonde eyebrows raised themselves high to emphasize her point. 

With an exasperated sigh Faileuba flung the covers away from her body and stretched. Sitting up and snatching her robe off the end of the bed, she proceeded to scowl and mumble while Veneranda chattered away like a magpie. The older girl half-listened as she knotted the robe's sash, thrashed a brush through her hair - just enough to be presentable - and splashed some cold water onto her face. As she reached for a dry linen, her toes inched off the fur rug and hit chilly stone. Faileube swore right in the middle of Veneranda recounting how she had helped the cook shoo the baby chicks back into the pen. 

The young storyteller cleared her throat, visibly annoyed, and with all the grace that she had inherited through generations of good bloodlines, the petite blonde girl flipped her hair over her shoulder, tilted her chin to the ceiling and sent an icy glare across the room to her sister. Though Faileuba was older there was still an expected level of respect. She curtsied in deference and offered a small smile "I ask your forgiveness, Princess Veneranda. I misspoke and interrupted you. Please be so gracious as to continue."

Satisfied as quickly as she was offended, the little princess plopped down onto the bed and with a grin she continued her tale. Though Faileuba was grateful the situation with her sister had been resolved, she still needed to rectify her own discomfort. Sticking fastidiously to the rugs and carpets scattered across her room, she crossed to a large shrunk and swung open the double doors. 

"Damnation."

Luckily for Faileube, her sister has finished her story by now, so the sudden oath did not upset her this time. Instead, it prompted her to hop off the bed and flit over to her sister. Her steps were light and her tiny pink toes seemed to dance across the floor. "What is it, my partridge. Have you lost something?"

Shaking her head, the older princess withdrew her pale arm from the closet's darkness. "I am afraid it is not so much what I have lost, as what I have ruined..." Her voice trailed off and she nodded sadly at what she held between thumb and forefinger - a pair of dirty, tattered slippers.